Comforting Words

Sometimes I can't find the words to tell myself or my family members to help get through this. Tomorrow is mom's appointment with the radiologist. I must admit I am a bit nervous. What will radiation do to mom? I keep wondering how she will get through it? I know she will but how sick will she get before it's over? Chemo really did it's work on mom. There were days she didn't even look like my mom. That is very hard for me to see. I know that together as a family we can do this but I still can't find those comforting words. I wonder if I ever will. I say a prayer to the lord above every night. It's funny how things are. I have always believed in the lord but I never regularly said prayers. Now I say one every night before bed. I pray that he will watch over my mom & get her through this. I pray for my family. I know we will get through this. Someone told me today to remember it will have it's ups & downs. Boy you can say that again! Mom just got out of the hospital yesterday, after a 4 day stay. You see she was going to have this procedure to insert a tube into her lung so she could breath better, however they weren't able to do the procedure because her tumor is to large & hard. So the next day she told me she felt awful. Like she had been hit by a car. All I could think was dam what's happening to my mom now?? She told me she couldn't move her arms or legs. It turns out she had a bad reaction to the anesthesia. Mom is better now. Hopefully no more trips to the hospital anytime soon. Well I'm going to end this with Remember you might always not be able to find comforting words, that's ok just listen.

With love until next time Laura

Very Inspiring

Hello everyone, As I struggle with my everyday troubles today I sit here feeling blessed. I just got off the phone with a close friend of mine who is going through her own life troubles. She asked me "Laura you have 4 kids how do you do it all by yourself?" All I could say to her is that my belief is that God will not give you anything he doesn't believe you can't handle. She told me I was her role model. Imagine that. Me being someone's role model? All I did was tell her everything would be ok. And I truly believe that. I still struggle with the thought of losing mom lately more than I use to. The holidays have passed and I really enjoyed them this year. Things were done a little differently this year than in years past. I really enjoyed them. I thought the holidays would be somewhat tougher this year because quite honestly I'm not sure if we will continue to have them all together again. Mom has been up and down lately. All I want is for her to get better. It's hard for me to see her coughing so hard that she can't breathe, and then she has a headache for an hour afterwards. I know together as a family we will get through this one step at a time. Things have been a little slow lately for the foundation. I can only hope things will pick up. I am eager to get the word out for awareness of this awful disease. Please as you read our blogs pass on the word to get the awareness out there. Anyway until next time I will leave you with this: You may never know who looks up to you. It's possible that you too are someone’s role model. Remember that anything is possible. Live, love & prosper.
Laura Hart