Monday, December 15, 2008

Tough Year End

Just the other day I was reflecting on the year and the year as the foundation president. I began to compose a blog however I did not finish due to emotions. ( I promise to finish it soon and post it)
Today has been nothing less than a tough day. I awoke to a message from Jazmine, my sister in law, saying mom had extreme bleeding and she was going to the hospital. I called mom to see what was going on and how she was. It was 9:30am AZ time, only 8:30 CA time when I spoke to mom. Mom and Jazmine were already on the way to UCSD La Jolla. Mom told me what was going on with her. She took a shower and went to the restroom after. She said she had filled the toilet with blood. She was scared and crying and need to blow her nose when she noticed the tissue was also full of blood. She called Jazmine as she was scared. Jazmine called the nurse who said she needed to get to the hospital.
That was 8:45 am CA time……. Fast forward…… Mom had a palette transfusion. Her 3rd I think since chemo has begun. I say I think simply because I live in AZ and I do not get to be there every time.
It’s almost 9pm as I type this (CA time) and mom is still waiting for a hospital room. They want to keep her overnight to make sure the bleeding is only due to platelets (so I am told). My brother, sister in law, sister and dad have been with her throughout the day. I have been next to the phone all day waiting for a call from one of them to give me an update. My sister called me two hours ago saying mom would have a room by 10pm CA time. I am still waiting for the phone to ring.
Today as many is one of the days I wish I could just pick up and move back to San Diego. One of those days I wish I was there to hold my mom’s hand, as I know she is scared. One of those days I could tell her it’s all going to be ok, without a crack in my voice. One of those days when I could make it all right. It has been anything but one of those days.
I look forward to the day when my mom has great grand children. She is looking forward to it as am I. I will be an awesome great uncle just as I am an uncle.
Today is tough simply because everything was going so well. My family all came out here to AZ for Thanksgiving. We had a great time. I am going to San Diego for Christmas. I know we will have even a better time. It’s just really tough being so far away from my mom when she goes through such tough times. I do have to thank her for, yet again, making me a stronger man. Today is a tribute to that. This morning I sat here in Phoenix and wondered what I would do if I were bleeding from both ends. I don’t think I would do much more than my mom did. I would make sure those that I love know it, I make sure they have a special place in my in my heart.
Well as always I went on to long. I need to close and wait for my sister to call me.
With Love and Gratitude,
Dan Hart

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